I`m A Survivor
I would sit there and cry
Because pictures don`t lie
I even had my wig on
You cound`nt tell my hair was gone
I was so thin, every one could see
I looked like all bones ,Was that really me
They said I had to have chemotherapy
They were going to poison me
It was like, have chemo or die
For days I`d just sit and cry
I and so many other`s ask why
Why is it this way, Why must I
Let them give me poison and make me sick
I had to make the decision quick
To me it was like someone has a shot gun
I just walk up to them, I don`t run
I have to be brave, I have to be strong
It`s like I say shoot me I`m not armed
I felt like saying see if I can stay alive
Will it help ,I wonder can I survive
I did`nt know what to say
It was`nt even a year since Mom passed away
When I found out that I had cancer too
To sit and cry was all I could do
So I was back to the question of why
I`d look in the mirror and I would cry
Who was that woman there
Her eyes are so dark, Where is her hair
The chemo done this to me
I wonder why would God let this be
I don`t understand , Then as I wipe my eyes
I think to myself,And I start to realize
Maybe He is testing me
To see how strong I can be
To see if I trust in Him
I always have and I will again
As I`d go for my treatment
I`d look at it as another trial God has sent
I`d feel more relaxed as I
Know they are trying to help me, So I won`t die
I won`t have the fear I had before
I`ll trust in Jesus more and more
I knew He`d make me strong
I won`t question Him, I know that`s wrong
I looked in the mirror one day
And said have faith God will change you back someway
I knew I must have courage as I go through these trial`s
For I know in my heart Jesus never fails
That was four years ago, I did survive
And I`m so thankful to be alive
As I stand in front of the mirror today
I realize those little things was a small price to pay
I praise God once again as I see
My hair is back I`ve gained weight I`m back to me
I am a survivor, Praise God for the good news
This is one battle I did`nt want to lose
I know if I get diagnosed with cancer again
Together this is a battle Jesus and I can win
I`ve learned I can survive ,I will survive
It`s so great to be healed and be alive
If I put my trust in him , and believe again
I have faith and I know this battle I can win
We do not fight our battle`s alone
I will win, Unless Jesus decides to call me home.
By Libra
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