My son
I remember when you were born you were the most beautiful baby.
You had thick beautiful brown hair and big beautiful brown eyes.
I was so happy and blessed to be able to have you in my arms.
You were my dream come true.
I know I was not the best mom but I sure did love you with all my heart.
I know you have had to go through a lot in your life because of my faults.
I wish I could change the past we had together.
I know because of alcohol it took me away from you.
I do know because of God we were brought back together again.
I know you were only seven when we were brought back together.
As I think back of the day when you tried to kill me by pushing me off that mountain we were on.
I feel so bad that I had no choice but to let go of you again but this time I let go with love because I had no other choice.
You were so full of hate that I did not know how to help you. You were of the tender age of thirteen. I so much wanted to help. You hurt yourself when you were around me; it broke my heart to see.
You wanted so much for me to die that I know the only thing I could do was to let go.
I did not want to see you go to prison for killing me.
The help I gave to you, you pushed away and were full of so much rage.
My heart aches to this day.
Within the anger of my broken heart, I have to live with this pain each day of my life. I love you even though I had to let you go.
I wonder how you are today now it has been 7 years since I have seen you. I pray that you have come to a point of forgiveness and love.
Now you’re a man of 20 years old so I know I have no ties on you. Which I really never had because I let you go.
Please know I let you go with love. I did all I could do to help you.
Some times when we love someone we have to let them go with love.
So for today I live my life with out you, as I have been and I know you’re in God’s hands so no matter what happens it will be the best because your in God’s hands.
Copyright © July 23, 2008 by Angela Contreras
This poem was written for:
CHALLENGE FOR BETTY
THIS WAS BROKEN LOVE
WITHIN THE ANGER OF
MY BROKEN HEART
By AngelaContreras
© 2008 AngelaContreras
(All rights reserved)
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